I never thought i’d get this far.

crazy how I used to always say all we do is flirt, dance, flirt, and have sex. Because there’s so much more to you and I and it took me this long to realize it. Everyone continues to tell me to take care of you but you know my biggest belief is that I’m not here to save anyone. But it makes me wonder why everyone thinks I play such a big role in your life. Things have been so underground with us because my intentions in this after you had made it clear was primarily to just catch your attention and mess around a little. Feelings were bound to happen and now I find myself interested in you more than ever, the age gap is significant but it’s funny how it doesn’t bother us. You and I have both fell out of long term committed relationships and obviously it does concern me since we both ended those relationships but neither of us have taken the liberty to tell each other why we ended them. I’m so torn between going through with this and stopping myself from falling further. So much is going on at once and it’s so difficult for me to explain this to people since no one truly understands where i’m coming from. but recently I did make a friend who was possibly if not more just as hurt as I am, and he did help me see what I need to do in order to make myself happier yet fails to follow his own advice since he’s so invested into his emotions towards someone (which I really admire). but my biggest thought throughout all this, is it all worth the risk?