So many different scenarios rushing through my head and I can’t help but be real with myself because I know you probably have someone waiting on you. And it is my fault, for falling into it so easily without thinking. Maybe i’m just vulnerable because i’ve been watching you for so long and everything has happened so quickly that I don’t know how to go about it. I finally have what I wanted and I guess I just wanted to be wanted back. There’s no doubt i’m extremely nervous and it’s hard for me to go with the flow on this because I don’t want to let myself get hurt even though I knew exactly what I was getting into. wish I could bring this all up and say how I really feel but I know it’s too soon for all that because things aren’t mutual and if they are i’m blind. The last thing I want is for things people said about you to be true too. Just wish you would give me a sign, plain and simple. But fuck, I really like you. I hate getting emotional but it was so hard to sit there and act normal after all this has happened. 

For now, I guess i’ll be on standby.